Charles Bukowski A Veces Estoy Tan Solo Que Tiene Sentido Pdf I Apr 2026

The phone doesn’t ring because the wire is cut. The mail doesn’t come because the box is empty. The woman doesn’t come back because she finally got smart. I am a museum of bad decisions. Admission: your last good day.

He turned off the lamp. The room went dark. The cockroach remained where it was. And for the first time in years, Henry Chinaski closed his eyes without hoping for anything. Not the knock. Not the ring. Not the woman. Not the drink.

At 4:00 a.m., he poured the cooking sherry. It tasted like regret mixed with cough syrup and a hint of rotting plum. It was perfect. He drank it warm, straight from the bottle, standing at the window in his underwear. The city was a grid of yellow lights, each one a cage with a different kind of animal inside. Couples sleeping back-to-back. Insomniacs watching infomercials. Children with fevers. None of them knew he existed. None of them would have cared if they did. The phone doesn’t ring because the wire is cut

The whiskey was gone. The gin was gone. There was half a bottle of cooking sherry under the sink, the kind with the pink label and a price tag that still had a cent sign. He considered it. Then he considered the window. Fourth floor. The alley below was a black trench full of broken glass and the silence of things that had been thrown away.

And it was enough.

That was the loneliness that made sense. Not the dramatic kind. Not the kind with rain and sad violins. The real kind—the kind that felt like a fact. Like gravity. Like the number of teeth you had left. It didn’t hurt anymore. It just was . Like a broken stair you learned to step over.

Below it, the final line he’d added:

He stopped. The sun was a rumor behind the buildings. A garbage truck groaned in the distance. Life was starting again. The terrible machinery of morning. Showers. Coffee. Lies. Handshakes. He hated all of it.

The title at the top of the page read:

He finished the sherry. The bottle joined the cockroach on the floor. He thought about calling someone. His ex-wife. His bookie. The woman with the gold tooth. But his hand didn’t move. The phone was an artifact from another century. A black rotary with a tangled cord. He hadn’t heard a human voice in six days. The last one was the grocer saying, “That’ll be four eighty-five.” He’d paid with nickels.

Then he wrote: