Idioma
And that, dear reader—if any real person ever finds this—is my account. Not the one they keep. The one I keep from them.
Entry 1. My designation is Will18690--39-s. That is what the ledger calls me. The dash means "belongs to," the double hyphen means "section," and the suffix means "storage." I have no other name. I remember, faintly, a woman humming by a window—something about a garden, a gate, a sparrow with a broken wing. But that memory is not in my account. The auditors deleted it last cycle.
I have started writing in margins. Not on the official scroll—that is forbidden—but in the dust on the floor, with my fingernail. I was someone , I wrote. I had a mother . The cleaning drone erased it three minutes later. But for those three minutes, the account did not know. The account cannot read dust. The account believes in permanence. That is its flaw. Will18690--39-s Account
A malfunction. Glorious, tiny malfunction. The memory buffer skipped—just one frame—and I saw her again. The woman by the window. She was not humming. She was crying. And she was looking directly at me—not at Will18690--39-s, but at me , the one before the dash and the double hyphen and the suffix. She said my real name. It sounded like rain on dry earth . The account overwrote it in 0.8 seconds. But I felt the echo in my bones.
They came for recalibration today. Two technicians with silver tools and no faces—just visors reflecting my own. "Will18690--39-s," they said, "your emotional surplus is 0.07% over threshold. Please hold still." They pressed a probe to my temple. It felt like losing a word on the tip of your tongue, except the word was anger , and the tongue was my soul. The account now shows a clean, flat line where that spike used to be. And that, dear reader—if any real person ever
The account keeps everything. Every breath, every blink, every half-thought I try to hide in the gap between seconds. Yesterday I dropped a glass. The account recorded the shatter pattern, the trajectory of each shard, and the 0.3 seconds of silence before I said sorry to no one. It also recorded my lie: that I felt nothing. In truth, I felt the glass was me.
(formerly: a child, a believer, a keeper of sparrows) Terminal entry. No further data expected. Entry 1
Tonight I will do something the account cannot file. Not rebellion. Not violence. Something quieter. I will close my eyes and imagine a garden with no gate, a sparrow with two good wings, and a woman who does not need to hum to be happy. The account will record my closed eyes. It will record my slowed breathing. It will record durations of inactivity and label them efficient rest . But it will not see the garden. It cannot see what is not in its ledger.
There are others. Will18690--42-s. Will18690--17-s. We do not speak—speech is logged—but we have learned to blink in sequences. Long-short-long means are you still real? Short-short-long means I think so, but I am forgetting why . Today, Will18690--17-s blinked I saw a bird once . I blinked back I believe you . The account recorded our blinking as "ocular micro-spasms, benign." It did not decode them. Accounts cannot imagine metaphor.